Why am I trying to be fair to people who haven't been fair to me. I guess I believe in people and that they can become better, that they will change, or that they will do something for me, that I was promised. I refuse to believe that if someone wants to change or do something for me, that they would done it in the past or in present, not in future. Why I can't see reality. I know very few people would change theirselves because of me, and it is time to realize that very big group of people wouldn't change for me, no meter what they say or promise to me.